Oh Happy Day… – Joan Baez 1971. Today started with purpose, it is ending with greatness, which leaves me singing! Today was more than I could have imagined. The past several months have been about discovery, understanding, forgiving and healing. I was left incapacitated and unable to function for much of this time. The past several weeks, I have improved greatly; thanks to good friends, prayer and finally understanding a bit (well, a lot) more about myself! Being kind to myself and treating myself with love and forgiveness has played a huge role. We all deserve to be loved and treated with the utmost kindness, especially from ourselves! This is something I have never been very good at. I have viewed myself in a negative light for so many years, because that’s what I was taught, that it was hard to see myself in that way.
Today, I can say things are very different and I love myself as much as I love so many others; and for those of you that know me, you know that I am a bleeding heart and will give until I have nothing else to give. I cannot take credit for this revelation. I have prayed, I have trusted God, I have trusted professionals and friends and I have wound up in an amazing place. Quite possibly the best place I have been in at least ten years. I can say, that even with the losses I have had in the past year and especially couple of months, I am HAPPY. Do you have any idea how it feels to say that? I AM HAPPY!! I haven’t been able to honestly say that in years. My heart is full. I have an amazing support system, an amazing family and the Lord in my heart which makes all of the difference in the world. I have developed so many new friends in the past year and have been able to do so many incredible new things I always dreamed of doing. I am in love with my new life!! A new home, a new job and a bright future. What more could a girl with my past ask for? What more could any woman ask for?? Nothing. I literally want for nothing right now as I sit here with a big smile on my face, alone, typing these few short words. I believe in my abilities. I know that I am a strong, capable woman with a great heart and work ethic. I secured an amazing new job; I provide for myself and my daughter and that is a huge feat. I have to say that I am proud of myself. That is another thing that isn’t easy for me to say…but I say it with full confidence.
I normally do a much longer and much more serious topic, but tonight – I just simply wanted to say what a great, happy day I had and I thank God for every moment of the season I am entering!! Keep the faith friends, you can turn your life into something great too, if you haven’t already!! It’s within you, I promise!! God bless and good night!!