“If the facts don’t fit the theory, change the facts.” -Albert Einstein
I’ve been away for a while! I’ve had a lot of sickness, frustration and changes over the past few weeks and I have not been writing and I have really been missing the outlet. Tonight will be a short and sweet post as I have several posts that I have started and need to put more thought and energy into.
The past few weeks have brought about many frustrations but so many amazing changes. I will soon be announcing some of these changes, but for right now let me just tell you I am doing great! I am finding the peace and happiness that I have been longing for, for many years. Everything is not perfect and no, there hasn’t been any huge breakthrough in my relationship. In fact, when I think about it, many of the circumstances themselves haven’t changed all that much, but my reaction and change of heart have changed dramatically! It’s me. I have began thinking of things differently and have taken more pride and love in myself; I have began looking to God more and His word for my comfort instead of other people. Other people don’t fulfill that hole in my soul, He does. I’m also not saying that a simple prayer fixes everything, because ultimately it’s the choices I make and if I actually LISTEN to the response when I ask for His guidance, that bring me to the place I want to be in life. I have a long way to go and a lot of work to do. Life is a daily challenge and struggle, but I find less of a struggle these days and I find things that were too painful and unmanageable before, to be things I can handle and deal with today. My guiding light is shining brighter than ever before and I intend to continue growing and that excites me!!
After 8 of the worst months of my life, (and I’ve had some BAD times in my life) I am seeing light at the end of the tunnel and feel more like I can focus on getting back to telling my story as opposed to using the blog as an outlet to get out of bed every day. The fact that we have tools is so fantastically amazing, but really seeing results from the tools is a whole other story! I couldn’t be more pleased with the progress I have made in my life and how much happier I am overall. My ability to manage day to day life is sweet and it’s a gift that I will never take for granted again. When you lose that ability, you’re lost. When you find it again, you’re blessed.
Thank you all for being with me on this journey; even though at times it’s very graphic and unpleasant. Unfortunately, that is how life is sometimes and we cannot be ashamed of it or hide it. I have had enough shame and hiding for a lifetime, and I refuse to do it any more! I am me! I am going to continue to tell my story with life and spunk where appropriate and other times with tension and emotion because it is due. My life is still my life and my story still my story; so while my heart and life are changing in amazing ways, my life was still not a cup of tea that will be for everyone to handle. I hope that you will see from my words tonight that there is always hope even when you are at your lowest and I can honestly say I was at the lowest point in my life this year. However, I have made multiple breakthroughs, made new friends, found lost family, learned to give from the heart in even more ways than I knew possible, made an even stronger relationship with God, repaired a lot of relationships, especially with myself and learned to speak my mind in a healthy and productive manner. These are huge feats for me and I hope that what I’ve been through has helped you in some way. I’m sure there will be plenty more drama to come, however with a change of heart, I will be better equipped to deal with it in the future.
So again, I thank you. I also remind you that if the facts don’t support the theory you have for your life, change the facts – not the theory. Put yourself back together and move on! Happy days to all of you…there are many stories to be finished and published on the road to my continued recovery! Please, as always, if you like what you read share with your friends. I would like to start having more of a following and be able to help and inspire more and more people daily. I am going to share a secret with those of you that read this…I want to turn this process into a motivational series of some sort. Ultimately, this blog will turn into a book of my life. I could use all of the input I can get to determine what is interesting and what isn’t. I want to make a major difference in not just my life, but yours!! Thank you ALL!! Much LOVE and watch for more posts coming soon about my history!